As Puff or Mitzi paws at the rug, the rug remains firm. It does not release a single thread to this endeavor.

The world my carnal self has built, appears to be a separate world from the world God would have me live in. In it, I experience things which Christians know, simply do not exist in heaven: death and sadness and sickness. Nevertheless, I constantly fluff up my pillow of pain, looking at indisputable proof that God has abandoned me here, to wallow in a Halloween world filled with agonizing shrieks.

Despite my perceptions that the world's appearances are true, I know that I am only "pawing at the rug." God is firm, unlimited, and boundless in energy in the form of Jesus that would not create a prison in which his children would live. God's attributes of love and peace and joy are completely shared by Him. Not one small portion of it is held back. He would not have me wait until death to give it all to me. He gives it all to me now but as long as I am fluffing up my pillow of pain, pawing at the rug, attempting to change His Reality, I will not be able to see what God has given.

Oh, Lord, help me see Your Reality here on earth at last. Help me let Your Kingdom come. Help me be free of the addiction I have with this world. Remove my curiosity about its nature so that my mind can once again be open to Yours. Thank you, dear Lord, for making Your Reality so strong and impenetrable that no worldly appearance can ever enter. Help me know, God, that I will not be confused for much longer in my worldly reality. Help my mind focus solely on Your light that I might bring it into the darkness I appear to be in. Amen.  

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